Learned

The first thing is about opportunity, the second thing is about being sexy and the third thing is about living life.
So first the opportunity. I believe that opportunity looks a lot like hard work. When I was 13 I had my first job with my dad carrying shingles up to the roof. And then I got a job washing dishes at a restaurant. And then I got a job in grocery store deli. And then I got a job in factory sweeping Cheerio dust off the ground. And I’ve never had a job in my life that I was better than. I was always just lucky to have a job. And ever job that I had was a stepping stone to my next job and I never quit my job until I had my next job. And so opportunities look a lot like work.

Number two: being sexy.
The sexiest thing in the entire world is being really smart. And being thoughtful. And being generous. Everything else is crap! I promise you! It’s just crap that people try to sell to you to make you feel like less. So don’t buy it. Be smart, be thoughtful, and be generous.

The third thing is something that I just re-learned when I was making this movie about Steve Jobs.
And Steve Jobs said: When you grow up you tend to get told that the world is the way that it is and that your life is to live your life inside the world and try not to get in too much trouble and maybe get an education and get a job and make some money and have a family.

But life can be a lot broader than that when you realize one simple thing and that is that everything around us that we call life was made up by people that are no smarter than you. And you can build your own thing, you can build your own life that other people can live in. So build a life – don’t live one, build one – find your opportunity, and always be sexy. 

Slacking Slacker

I've just started on this blog and Im already slacking. Well, things have been okay. I guess. My exams are coming up soon. Oh and my closest friend left without saying goodbye to New York. Well I guess truth to be told, we were never really that close.
 I've realised people just want you to be there. Doesnt really matter how. But they want support. I just want my a levels to end so I can spend as much time with my friends. I hate constantly studying. Im barely studying anyway. I hope life works out. I watched the Teen Choice Awards the other day and well, strangely got some inspiration. Well from who ? Ashton Kutcher. Yes. Haha. Im just going to be happy and work hard.

Happy Is Happy

Good days come rarely to me now. I love days like these. I miss them. Days I truly have no worries. I used to have those when i was younger. Where I would live my life to the fullest and not give damns about what people think. Where the days were endless. I was so happy once.

Reasons

              I came back from college today and decided I wanted a blog. Why ? I need to write. I need  'something' that will keep a secret, a way I could express myself freely without thinking about the others around me who might judge me and of course assume that i am something that i'm not . I need something to listen and not comment but understand. Thats it. 

             That would allow me not to be afraid of saying things that are needed to say. Words that I was, I am and I will be afraid to say. To write about things I will never say to a real human being.

             This, allows me to be brave. To be brave enough to speak out, to let my thoughts flow, unlike in daily basis where i have forbid myself from exposing my inner feelings. I guess, I have never truly been brave. 

            No one truly knows me. It's not their fault honestly. I just simply choose not to tell them. I dont want people listening to my endless worries. They have enough worries of their own. I don't mind. Some people do though. Some people get upset. Everyone is waiting for someone to pick them up, to comfort them, waiting for a friend to care, but why ? I dont understand. Why do we need people constantly asking us if we're okay ? Checking up on us to see if we need a friend and why do we get so upset when a friend is not 'there' to help you cope. You dont need to worry the world with your petty problems. How would it help ? Yes, it might make you feel better. Make you feel loved. But then again, why ? Why is there a need to feel love ? Or is it the need for attention and love is just a cover line. Maybe. Yes, i might be afraid of letting people see too much of me, to see my passion, my ambition , my drive, my worries, my thoughts.  They just need to know that I am alive and happy. But there is one thing that I would like people to know about me, I am brave. Then again, I dont feel brave anymore.

       So, this is why. This is why i choose to have this blog. Just for my eyes, and of course occasionally  strangers.

Question : Can a man still be brave if he is afraid ?

Answer : That is the only time a man can be brave.

George R.R Martin